Who am I?
Where is the meaning in my life? What is really important? How can I make a difference in the world? These are all questions that I have been thinking about a lot recently. There are a lot of things in my life recently which have been steering me towards these questions; the death of my grandmother, my sister's impending first baby, the role I have with my own children, the ways in which becoming a mother has changed me, these first steps that I am taking towards doing the things I love and starting my own business,.
This is me with my granny when I was about 6 months old.
I have always known that my Granny Olive was a pretty special lady. I have also known for a few years that she wrote a book about her life experiences. I'm not sure why I never asked to read it until now. I think it was a combination of my failure to realise that getting a copy was as simple as asking my mum to email it to me, and my own self absorption in my busy life as a new mum. I regret it so much now. I have just finished reading her story and I wish so much that I had read it years ago, there are so many things that I would have liked to talk to her about, so many questions I could have asked. It really started me wondering what my story is going to be? What will I have to show for my life by the time I (hopefully) reach old age? What lessons will my own grandchildren learn from me? Will they be proud of the person I was, of the things I have done? Will they see a life lived with love and compassion, a life lived with courage, strength and joy? I hope so. It's so easy to keep on plodding through life, to get bogged down with day to day tasks and forget to stop and look up, to look around and appreciate how lucky we are to be living in this moment. We could all do with taking a little more time to notice the special moments in every day, talking a little more time to consider our actions and think about how we can enrich the lives of those around us, of those we love. I don't believe that living a meaningful life requires doing remarkable things - I think it is more of an achievement to do ordinary things in a remarkable way.
What do you think?